Last night was a rough night for Benny and he has had several of them over the course of the past couple weeks. They take different forms and yet they are all a part of his detoxing and recovery. There have been a number of nights where he coughed out a lot of gunk. Some nights where he just had to get up every couple of hours to go out. Last night appeared to be more of an emotional release. He could not get physically comfortable, his body shook at times, he coughed, let out long breaths. He wasn't able to get comfortable lying down so sat up most of the night. I sat with him and he frequently rested his head on my knee. As I sat with him I thought of how all over this beautiful blue green planet earth so many of us, both human and non human were sitting with our loved ones who were ill and praying for them to have comfort. I thought of the times my partner Michael, friends, and family had sat with me through hard times. I thought of those of you who have sent your love and blessings to Benny. How many of us were up together last night, loving without expectation and of all the many forms that love takes. And I was grateful to be part of this mystery we live in.
Once the sun came out Benny went out to sit in it with Raven. They walked down to where the sun was shining brightly. Across the street from them is one of our neighbor dog who barks most of the day. I think he is anxious. If anyone walks by or he can see anyone the barking increases in intensity and volume. Once Benny got down to where the neighbor dog was barking, amazingly, the dog quieted down, stopped barking actually. They looked at each other from across the way. Then Benny, Raven, and the neighbor dog from their various seated positions, quietly observed the rhythm of life around them.
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Looking to the right
Wishing loving comfort to all of you,